So...I have no excuse...

I have no good reason for never checking/updating my blog. Honestly, I just forget about it. I even have a tab at the top of my internet browser right between "Fanfiction" and "Neopets"...speaking of neopets, mine are probably starving :/. In any case, I just forget to update, or I "don't have time". Yada-yada, excuses, evasions.

First semester of college was bittersweet. I got over my fear of being a college student REAL QUICK when I realized that not only could I go to the bathroom whenever I wanted to, but also when I realized that I could spend two hours for lunch. I had time between classes, and I could nap or go places. I just LOVED having some time to myself after 12 years of being in class all day from 8-3:15 with only 30 minutes for lunch.

That being said, I also let the whole having time to myself thing get away from me. I slept, A LOT, as Margo will gladly testify. I think I just got carried away with the idea that I could nap in between classes, and once you nap that first week...it's all down hill from there! It was a surprise, to say the least, when I realized that I actually have to MANAGE my own time. I can't just drift around and HOPE that I magically FEEL like doing my homework.

I also realized, that you actually have to STUDY for some of your classes in college. Something that (last semester) was still semi-foreign to my half-still-in-high-school mind. In high school, studying was something done so rarely, that it took me a while to realize that you can't always just cram for a test (that's not to say that you can't, but it's a lot easier to just study).

It was a kick in the butt when I saw my final grades. They weren't...awful. They weren't great either. Okay, they were kinda bad...2.2. I have NO IDEA what happened in my American History class. I worked REALLY hard, but it was such a difficult class! The weird thing is, I got B's on EVERYTHING, all semester. All except for the last paper ('C'). I must have REALLY bombed the final, but I felt like I did well, so I still don't know how I ended up with a 'D' in that class. The class average for my Psychology class was around a 'C' too, so I don't feel TOO bad for that one. Otherwise, I did okay.

SO, because I was so SHOCKED at how unspectacular my gradepoint was, I started this semester off with some serious mindset changes. I didn't nap the first week, which was actually really great! I was getting at least 6 hours of sleep (which, if you've ever just ADDED an hour of sleep time is GLORIOUS). I was finishing my homework when I had time, and as soon as I could. Plus, Margo and I have joined some workout classes!!!

Now I have this annoying bug, and I'm all behind again. Staying up late, taking naps...I'm falling back into that pattern already. I'm doing my best to get back on track, but it's hard to do when you don't feel good. I'm working on it, but I think I'm going to go to bed now so that I won't have to take a nap tomorrow. :)

Kayla

PS, I'm going to TRY to start updating more frequently, but no promises. This is not exactly at the top of my priorities list.

College!!!

In case you've ever been told otherwise (which I doubt) that college is terrible, it's not. In fact, it kinda ROCKS! I love it so far. Even though I do feel a tad overwhelmed at times. On M,W,F I'm out of class for the rest of the day by 2PM and on Tue, Thur I'm done by 11AM. It's awesome.

Right now, I'm sitting in the lobby of our dorm listening to music, watching 'Friends', and chilling on the internet. I haven't brought myself to do my French homework yet. I just finished a thing of Doritos and now I'm too lazy to go get some water.

I'm attending four different churches...sort of. New Life <3, Grace Pointe, Chi Alpha, and now Cru. I just went to Zumba for the first time. I've made some new friends too! Things are pretty great.

TTFN
Kayla

What's it like to be a high school graduate?

So, it's over. Graduation has come and gone, and I am finished with high school forever.

Weirdest. Feeling. In. My. Life.

I've been riding on this incredible wave of happy since I walked out of that tunnel, and I just seem to keep soaring. Until I remember the faces of the kids I may never see again. That sounded morbid, like they died and it's all over. What I mean is, I remember people that I know are leaving Conway, and I know our friendship isn't strong enough to try and continue long distance through college. They are just those lost friends that will remain faceless as I grow old and tell my potential children -or nieces and nephews- of my time in high school. "Then there was this one girl...what was her name? Oh, what was it?!...Well, anyway, there was this girl that always-". It's just weird, knowing that there are people that I've seen every day since the sixth grade, and I may never wave to them ever again. I feel a loss of familiarity and comfort that high school -weirdly enough- provided for me.

I am happy though. I'm excited to start a new chapter in MY life. I'm ready to go to a school where the administration recognizes me as an adult, or at least recognizes that I have an opinion. I'm going somewhere where teachers like Mr. Terrell aren't a rarity. I get to start learning in a way that I'M excited about. That's awesome. I get to room with one of my two best friends, and I get to start trying to become an independent woman that can pay her own way. It's a transitional phase that I am excited to enter.

I still don't think it's hit me yet though. The weirdness is only semi-there. I think when college classes start in the fall, it'll really hit me that I'm DONE with high school forever.

I got some pretty cool stuff for graduation as well. One of which, is supplying this awesome blog entry. No, mom didn't buy me blogspot.com :P but, my grandparents, and my great aunts Glenda and Judy, all pitched in to buy me a brand new TOSHIBA. :) Mom and Larry are taking me to pick out a new phone sometime this week. I made about 420$ in money, and I got some giftcards too. I'm pretty stoked to go shopping for dorm stuff with Margo. I think I'm going to split it though. I'm going to save about 210$ (possibly a bit more) and keep it in savings until time to pay some money for my dorm. Dad's going to give me some more money about then to help me out. The rest I think though, will probably go towards buying stuff to go IN the dorm and other college things I'm going to need. :) I'm pretty excited.

I still can't believe I'm a high school graduate.

TTFN
Kayla

Prom, Dallas, and Graduation

I know it's been a while since I updated, Margo. Sorry. :P

What's been up in the world of Kayla since NASCAR? Plenty. I've been super busy. I did the musical, Mark Wood Experience (Orchestra thing), One-Acts, One-Man-Show, AP Exams, Spring Concert (Orchestra again), and tons of other stuff. I've had tons to do. So, instead of having a billion word blog post, I'm going to leave those at that and talk about the three biggies.

Prom. Was super fun. Josh Smith asked me to go. We went in a group with Kevin Spatz and Marie Desrochers. We made a diagram of our plans, which were totally absurd, but it was fun. Then we actually followed the ones we could, and then skipped over the jetpacks and skydiving. We took pictures at Hendrix, ate food at Faby's, danced it out at Prom, hung out (AKA Josh played his guitar while Kevin and I played chess like a bunch of nerds :P) at Simon Park for a while, and then watched "GREASE" at Marie's house. I got home around 4:30-5:00. I had a blast.

I just got back from the Dallas trip yesterday. We had fun. We got to see Hilary Hahn, and she was awesome. Then we had a really good time at Six Flags. Then we shopped it up at the Grapevine Mall. It was really fun, and I'm really glad I decided to go.

Graduation hasn't happened yet, but the practice is tomorrow. I guess I can't really update on it, except to say, "I can't believe it's actually here". It snuck up on me. I tried to ignore it, couldn't stop thinking about it, and then suddenly it was here. Except, now I'm really excited. Sure, I'll miss the people I don't see anymore, and I'll be sad to see some of my friends go, but life will go on. I'll meet new people, and I get to keep my closest friends. I guess, I'm starting to realize that college will be great, and if I lose contact with people then that's how God meant for it to be. I guess we'll see.

TTFN
Kayla

*SIGH* NASCAR grandpa? Really?

So, I'm at my grandma and grandpa's house. I stayed the night last night and got to hang out with the twins. Faith decided that she wanted to sleep with me last night...so I spent the entire evening with a four-year-old heater on my arm. They're adorable though. Faith asked, "Why are you here? Is your mommy at work?" lol, and when I said no she asked, "So why are you at meme and grandpa's?". I said, "Because meme and grandpa are my granparents too." Faith-"Who are you're grandparents?" Me-"Meme and Grandpa." Faith-"What are their names?" Me (confused)-"Liz and John." Faith-"Your meme and grandpa are Liz and John?" Me-"Your meme is my meme too." Faith-"There are two memes?!" Kids are so cute.

Krista thinks that the Black Eyed Peas are saying "I'm a Bee" and not "Imma Be". Dad tried to explain it by saying, "They're not saying 'I'm a bee', it's like slang for 'I'm going to be' but they run it all together 'Imma be'." Her response? "I don't think so dad. It's 'I'm a bee'".

Anyway, grandpa's watching NASCAR (*rolls eyes*). It's so boring to me. It's always been that show that everyone watches at naptime, so I always get tired when it comes on. Ever since I was little, grandpa would turn on NASCAR and fall alseep in his chair. God forbid you touch the romote though. He'll wake up and snatch it from you with a glare in his eyes. If you've ever watched the 'Proud Family' on Disney, Penny's grandma would fall asleep with the TV on and once someone turned it off she would wake up immediately and say "Hey! I was watchin' that!". That woman is my grandpa.

So that's what's going on in the world of Kayla today. We're just sitting around, watching NASCAR, and waiting for dad and his girlfriend to show up...

TTFN

Kayla

I'm Still ALIVE!

So, in case you all were wondering where I am (translation: in case you aren't Kenna and Margo), I've traveled to Oklahoma, the OK state, to see my dad for Spring Break! That is correct (I'm assuming you've asked a specific question here. A question I intend to answer), I DID in fact drive at least four hours by myself to get here. Yes, it is the farthest I've ever drivin out of Conway, and no I don't have any roadtrip driving experience. It was SO MUCH FUN. I really enjoyed it. It would have been more fun if I had a friend to talk to when jamming to my music got old (you wouldn't beleive it, but in a car, it can). Otherwise, I totally enjoyed it. I actually felt sort of free.

Right now, I'm chillin' at the AMAZING LIBRARY in Tulsa. It's probably the best place to be on the entire planet. One day, if I decide to be a hobo, I might even move in to the parkinglot downstairs. Lol.

Well, I've only got 22 minutes left on this computer, so I'll talk to you guys in a while. Dad doesn't have wifi a his appartment, and I can't update until this weekend UNLESS 1. I come to the library again tomorrow, 2. I go to a coffee shop (there are like 14 hundred million here) or 3. My dad's girlfriend (whom I just met, and yes I do think it's a big deal that he introduced me since he's never introduced me to a girlfriend before and they've only been dating since New Years) has wifi at her place, because that's where we're staying the night tonight. That's right. She stayed at dads Monday night, and we're staying at her place tonight. He's also introducing her to my grandparents this weekend. Snap! Now I only have 19 minutes left.

So, if I don't get back to you online soon, just text me or wait until this weekend. Please text me if you want (not through Facebook cause it's annoying getting texts from it) 'cause during the afternoon dad's working and I don't have anyone to talk to without teh interwebs.

TTFN

Kayla

Tink Better Find Me Quick!

Margo told me that I HAD to update because I haven't in like...3 weeks to a month. So here's a basic run-down of what's going down in Kayla-Land :).

College-wise: I got accepted into all three colleges that I applied for (being UCA, UACCM, and University of the Ozarks). I did NOT get accepted into the Honors program, but was told that if I went to UCA and kept up a good GPA my freshman year, they would invite me in for my sophmore year. I had two college visits in a row (in two days though). In case you were wondering UCA, you're college tours suck.

The UCA tour was really boring. Honestly, everyone on it was from Conway, and everyone in Conway has been to UCA fourteen-hundred-billion times. We were all bored out of our minds. The tour-guides paraded us around campus, pointed, and said "This is the ____ building. It's where the ____ program is located." while the rest of us talked and tried not to complain about our aching feet. What really got me excited about UCA was the writing program. Mom and I talked to one of the professors, and he was awesome. He gave us a ton of info on the program, gave me a copy of the Lit Mag, and was/got-me really excited about it.

The Ozarks tour was way better. They only had like 5 kids coming on a visit, and they had our names in the Lobby on a name-board-thing. I got a personalized program thing. We were all separated, got a campus walk, one on one time with some of the professors, and we even got to sit in on a class. The size of the campus was perfect, the campus was meticulously spotless, and the nature surrounding the campus was beautiful. I honestly loved the place. Unfortunately, the English program was lacking in comparison to UCA's and the school was SO FAR away from home. The real deciding factor though, was the cost. We simply can't afford it.

It may be surprising to you, but I chose UCA. I LOVED Ozarks, and I will probably write them a letter, explaining that I simply couldn't afford it. It sucks though, because I really liked the people, the campus, and basically everything about it (despite the lack of creative writing program stuff). UCA will be cool though, and I already have a roommate, and she's pretty awesome.

Roomate stuff: Margo and I have decided to room together, and we hope to get a room in Conway Hall. We've already planned layout stuff, and we spent an entire afternoon discussing roomy stuff and making guidelines. I feel that we're fairly prepared to deal with a number of situations and occasions. I'm pretty stoked -and way less terrified- about college now.

School Stuff: Don't even ask. My grades...need some help. I'm gonna work on it.

Other Stuff: Musical rehearsal is keeping me pretty busy. I met a cute boy (he plays the guitar, LIKES to read, and goes to church at New Life). I went and saw "Alice in Wonderland" with Allison Taylor and loved it. I saw "Shutter Island" with Josh and LOVED it.

Things are pretty hectic (but in a good way) right now. Things are wrapping up High-school-wise, and starting up adult-world-wise, which is both really exciting and extremely scary. I'm excited, but I have this huge ball of fear inside me and it's bouncing of the walls of my stomach uncomfortably. I'm sure things will turn out well, but I can't help myself. I honestly can't seem to wrap my mind around the fact that I'm about to be 18 in about 3 weeks AND I'm graduating from high school in about 2 months. It's all just so crazy, and moving so fast!

Tink better find me quick if she wants to catch me before I have to be a pirate!

TTFN

Kayla